Intuitive Eating

Nutrition drives me insane. There are a lot of things about nutrition that are counter-intuitive, that change constantly, and that different people think differently of. 

Intuitive Eating is one of those things. It was brought up to me while talking to a psychologist regarding my obsessive need to eat even when I'm not hungry after forcefully having to quit Ozempic. Let me outline the 10 basics of "Intuitive Eating":

1. Reject the Diet Mentality

Stop dieting. As they say, it's not a diet, it's a lifestyle change.

2. Honor your Hunger

Don't wait to eat until you're starving; then you tend to go overboard.

3. Make Peace with Food

Don't deny particular foods. They can cause uncontrollable cravings and then binge episodes, which makes you feel guilty.

4. Challenge the Food Police

Stop the cycle of being "good" for consuming minimal calories or "bad" for eating a piece of chocolate cake. 

5. Discover the Satisfaction Factor

This is like Mindful Eating. Discover the satisfaction of eating.

6. Feel your Fullness

Observe the signs that show you are comfortably full. 

7. Cope with Emotions with Kindness

Don't let your emotions trigger eating, basically. 

8. Respect your Body

Don't be overly critical about your body and compare yourself to everyone else

9. Movement - Feel the Difference

Just get active and feel the difference. Don't focus on burning calories, just focus on moving.

10. Honor your Health - Gentle Nutrition

You don't have to eat perfectly be be/feel healthy

If you want to read the full definitions, the website is found here

To start off, #9 resonates with me since I loathe exercise, and this feels like a more reasonable goal. But I take issue with #3 and #4. Basically, as the psychologist described it, is that you don't deny yourself any food, because if you do it can cause resentment, or uncontrollable cravings for it, and if the food in question tends to be available to consume at any time, then you won't constantly reach for it and overeat it (???).

I'm sorry, I call bullshit on that. And the reason I say so is because sugar is an addictive substance. It's been shown in studies to cause dopamine spikes just like drugs, and can give you feel good feelings so you'll want more. And I can prove this on a personal level because when I was on hCG, and then later on Whole30, (which cuts out all sugar) I had no cravings for it whatsoever. I could pass up that piece of chocolate cake, or if I did eat something, it tasted WAY too sweet and actually made me want to stop consuming it.

So fine, maybe have that bag of chips you so crave, or whatever (I honestly don't know what people crave beyond sugary goods), but constantly having something sugary in your pantry at the ready at all times? That's just a recipe for disaster in my opinion. There is nothing in those sugary goods that your body needs nutritionally. So there is literally no reason to have them/consume them. 

My issue with trying to find reasonable accommodations with intuitive eating is straight up calories in vs calories out. I've heard both camps on this - I was following up with a dietitian that believed all calories were not the same, and it made a difference. I mean, of course it does - eating healthy calories is better than eating unhealthy calories. But in the end, if your body only burns 2k calories a day, and you consume 2.5k, then you will gain weight regardless of where those calories came from. And that's where I am stuck at.

Look, I made the "lifestyle change" years ago. It's called healthy swapping. I don't deny myself any carbs (although I should probably limit them more to be perfectly honest. Carbs are too easy to just grab and eat), I just swap for healthier options. That Egg McMuffin I make at home? Whole wheat english muffin, and canadian bacon instead of sausage or regular bacon. I could even go as far as all egg whites, (The egg white mcmuffin they used to have at McDonalds was bomb and I wish they'd bring it back) but I learned a long time ago that cutting out fat is also a recipe for disaster. Fat is satiating. Yeah, it adds a ton of calories but it also tastes good and it helps keep you full. So I'm all about that whole egg. Want pasta? Use chcikpea. It's got fiber and protein. Add some ground turkey instead of beef. Use tomato sauce instead of alfredo. The pizza I like to eat is the Mediterranean one from Dominos. Thin crust with all veggies and no meat.

For snacks, I try my best to grab things like apples, oranges, kiwis, grapes. When I'm at home sometimes I'll have cottage cheese with some jam, or carrots with homemade ranch dressing using greek yogurt for added protein (and because it doesn't have any sugar in it when you make it yourself. Like, why. Why does ranch dressing have sugar and corn syrup in it???)

But even with all these healthy substitutions, I still eat more than I burn. Calories in vs calories out. So what I'm trying to figure out is how to stop the urge to eat when I'm not hungry. Sometimes I'll eat when I'm not hungry, and not even feel full when I'm done. I'm like in this in-between space all the time; it's kind of weird. My body has lost its ability to send me signals. I can probably blame Ozempic for this; I mean I gained 15 lbs in less than 8 weeks once I stopped, but I figured my body would figure it out and some point and it still hasn't. So I don't know what to do about it.

I know all the tricks, okay? I drink water, broth, tea, even Olipop [which has prebiotic fiber]. I chew gum and suck on mints. I'll even take glucomannan pills (Konjac root) to help make me full, but I'm eating when not hungry, so that doesn't help much. Is it boredom? Probably. There's not a ton I can do about it at work. There are busy times and not busy times. Even the administrative work I do when I'm not busy doesn't keep me distracted enough. At home it's much worse. My activities/hobbies are all introverted inside by myself hobbies like paint by number or diamond painting, which isn't distracting enough either. It's just tough. I just... want to eat. Does anybody have any suggestions for me? Thanks in advance!

Movie Flashback Time! Tremors

I thought about trying to shoehorn this post into a 'Review Wednesday' (which is a title only), or a 'Underrated Movies' but I didn't feel like trying to make it fit into either of those categories. Besides, I really don't think Tremors was an "underrated movie"; it just has a lot of meaning to me personally, so I figured I'd write about it, kind of in a review format.

Tremors is considered a horror flick, but it's pretty corny for horror, especially considering the movies coming out today. It's one of the very few horror movies that I would even watch, and that's probably only because I was 7 years old when I saw it for the first time on TV.

It's one of those movies where you look at the cast and are like Kevin Bacon? Must be good. Then scroll past a couple no-names, and then you see Michael Gross and you have to blink a few times. Seeing him in the cast not long after finishing Family Ties was kind of hilarious. And then you see Reba McIntyre and you just wonder how this movie even got made.

The premise is already outrageous when you think about it. I mean, maybe most horror movies are. Have you seen Blood and Honey? Yeah, anyway... 

The movie has some really good build up which is always essential. The cast is fairly diverse in their range with the smart people (the geologist/seismologist student), the dumb people (generally the ones who get eaten), and the obligatory 17-year old smart ass. I would 100% be the seismologist, as without her, everyone would have been too dumb to stay alive.

The movie didn't have a ton of laugh out loud humor, nor any famous one-liners. But it stuck out in my mind all these years because for a while after seeing this movie when I was 7, I was scared of the sand and would only walk on the crab grass. My parents probably thought I was doing some kind of hopscotch routine, but little did they know I was traumatized for a bit.

Admittedly, 7 is a little young to be watching a movie like that, but take solace in the fact that it was edited for TV so the swearwords were bleeped out (more on that in a bit) and some of the more horrifying scenes were cut out completely. 

The scene that scared me the most as a young child isn't even a big deal in the grand scheme of the movie but I was really affected by it - to the point where I would close my eyes even into adulthood - every time I rewatched it. I'm talking about near the beginning of the movie where the Doctor and his wife are building their trailer in the desert and the generator suddenly stops working because the "Graboids" (no, I can't call them that, sorry) - Tremors sucked it under, and he went to go check it out. His death was slow as the wife tried to grab him when he was being slowly sucked down.

In contrast, when Walter got grabbed right in the middle of his store with
everyone around, and was being swung wildly while people screamed around him, wasn't even that big of a deal. And I think the reason, for me anyway, was because that was a scene that was cut out of the TV version, and I'd never seen it until I was an adult.

And I swear, the scene with the Doctor's wife in the car being sucked into the ground was the most unbelievable part of the entire movie because A. She had no car keys so how was the radio playing and the headlights on? and B. Like, what kind of sand can you even walk on that a creature can suck a car into?

But that scene where Michael Gross (Doomsday prepper!) and Reba McIntyre shoot the shit out of a Tremor that broke into their basement was bad ass and lovingly unexpected for the Family Ties father.

In regards to the swearing, I have a funny story to tell. So, growing up watching cable, bleeping was everywhere. I was so used to it that it didn't even bother me most of the time (I don't even watch cable TV anymore - is bleeping still a thing?), and there was a particular scene after Val and Earl kill their first Tremor and check it out, and Val says "I found the ass end!", and in my little 7-year old mind, I must have thought that "ass end" wasn't a swear word because it hadn't been bleeped. When my parents and I were moving to our acreage when I was in the 4th grade, and we were watching our mobile home trying to make it around a tight bend with a telephone pole in the way, and I said "They're having trouble with the ass-end" - yeah. I got yelled at. Worth it though.

[As I type those words into Google Search and prepare to quickly close my screen at the potential results, I find these gems:

and my faith in humanity is restored.]

All in all, it's a fun movie and if you haven't seen it, I would recommend it (maybe not highly, but I digress), maybe with a few shots of alcohol for an even better time.

Is tech making us dumber?

As much as society wants to shoehorn me into being a Millennial (born between 1981-1996) I feel like I belong to Generation X. Being born in 1984 meant a split between having little technology, to being at the cusp of a technological boom when it comes to cellphones and internet. True that I was young (around 8-10 years old) when we brought the internet into the home, and I had my own computer that was a hand-me-down from my dad. But prior to this, and really, for a lot of that childhood, I was still in the "play outside and ride bikes until the street lights came on". I grew up using tapes and recording songs from the radio. I used VCRs and recorded shows. I had a tape walkman and then a CD walkman when they came out.

Granted, my situation was a bit unique. I was an introverted child, quite overweight, and when we moved in 1994, it was to 5 acres away from everything and everyone. I was 30 minutes away from the town. I still played outside quite a

bit, exploring the woods and taking care of my ducks, but as the internet began to grow, I grew with it. I had 28k at home, (downloading with Napster was a chore!) and 56k when I moved to the big city at 18. And I didn't get my first cellphone until about the age of 23.

While my parents (my dad especially) kept up with technology for a while, they began to lag further and further behind. I feel as if technology, and the internet especially, has not made me more dumb. Lazy, sure. But dumber? No. Let me give you an example.

So when I was younger I wrote a lot. My creativity came out both visually and written, and I had a lot of ideas when it came to stories. Obviously when I was young, I was handwriting all of my stories, and for a while I would have my friend Mandy type them out for me because I was incredibly slow at typing and I wanted a better way to preserve my work. But as I learned to type for myself, using programs like Microsoft Word, I learned how to spell [better]. The little red squiggles under all the words I spelled wrong annoyed the hell out of me. I could have been lazy and just right-clicked to fix without ever knowing what Word was doing, but I decided to learn instead. This is an important distinction. Why was I always spelling 'necessary' wrong? It was so annoying! Yes, it took a lot of repetition to remember how to correctly spell it eventually, but without Word telling me it was wrong and why, I would have never known.

Now on the flip side, the whole "you need to learn the maths because you'll never have a calculator in your pocket" hilarious argument that teachers made back in the day has me forgetting how to do even the most basic of math in my head. But to be honest, I was never good at math anyway. It's my worst subject and I hate it. I was never taught correctly how to do it in the beginning, so relying on my phone to do simple tasks like tipping would probably be something I'd still be struggling with today regardless. If I was tipping without computer assistance I'd probably just get it wrong all the time. So it's much better this way lol.

As the internet grew in size, scale and ability, I took full advantage. I soaked up information like a sponge. It was like a bronze age all over again. I learned and I learned some more. And I'm still learning. I see my parents stagnate as they only use the internet for the most basic of tasks like using their Mychart. I never want to be like that. I love learning; and if it wasn't for the internet it would be a much harder thing to do now that I'm out of school.

In this, tech is definitely not making me dumber. However, we're also beginning a new age... the age of AI. While Baby Boomers think we're lazy and rely on technology too much in our daily lives, boy they got another thing coming when they see AI enter the chat. Things may change substantially once we as a society start using AI for things that we used to do ourselves. 

I don't want to be left behind when it comes to using AI, but I also don't have a job that would benefit from it. I'm not a computer programmer or use Exel spreadsheets. My company as a whole would benefit substantially, but I'm not working for that part of it, so it's up to them to do what they will with it and I hope they use it. For me and the basic life that I live, I'm not sure what AI has to offer. But I will keep up with it and make sure to figure out how to use it once it becomes beneficial to me.

I'm not about to be left in the dust.

Vitamix 5200 vs Ninja

I could not find anything on youtube comparing any Vitamix blender against the Ninja Smoothie maker. The Ninja blender sure, but how does it stack up against their smoothie making system?

I had gone to Costco and bought the Ninja Power Blender Ultimate System on sale for $120 because I thought I could replace my old Ninja Blender (it's like a first gen model with the 3 different cup sizes and the motor on top with a single speed), replace my food processor, and add a smoothie maker. Sounded pretty neat.

But, I kept looking at Vitamixes because they can also heat soup and stuff, and the Ascent series has a food processor attachment along with a smoothie cup. I won't go into too much detail for my researching but basically buying the Ascent Series, in addition to accessories, would put me into stupid debt so it wasn't a viable option, plus I kept reading about how bad the "new" jars were for small batches, and the Ascent series doesn't have a classic jar option to buy. (The low profile jar would fit under most countertop cabinets, but I don't intend on leaving my blender out on the counter 24/7 so I didn't care about that.)

That left me with the classic Vitamix series (non-smart) so although it didn't have a bunch of cool features, it would blend like a champ and last me for 10-20 years so I began looking around ebay for some deals. And I found a screaming deal on a Vitamix 5200 with classic jar for $170. Built in 2020, was sitting in a storage unit probably its whole short life. It was unbelievable. 

So, onto the comparison. The recipe I used was a standard kale smoothie I found online. I wanted to use kale because it's notoriously hard to blend down so that little flecks of green stuff don't get stuck in your teeth. Who wants that?

The Recipe:

1 cup milk

1 frozen banana (I only had fresh)

2 kale leaves, stems removed

1 cup diced frozen mango

1/2 tsp grated ginger

handful of ice

Bonus: this is pretty darn tasty as well

As you can see here, while the smoothie cup on the Ninja is packed to the brim, the Vitamix has plenty of room to grow. Granted, the smoothie cup is meant as a single serve on the go container, but you can't "grow up" to the using the Ninja blender for this if you wanted to make several servings at once, as it can't even come close to the Vitamix (there are plenty of examples of this on youtube).

Now, the Ninja is cool because it has settings for stuff like Smoothie, Extract (for like a V8 dupe), and bowl (meant for like, an Acai smoothie bowl-type consistency). The setting for Smoothie goes for 55 seconds and pulses a couple times before turning it up high to pulverize it all. So if you like to set and forget, Ninja is still a good option.

On the Left: DB of the Ninja. I was quite surprised how quiet this meter said it was - because it seems VERY loud; maybe it's just at a high pitch, I'm guessing. 

On the Right: The Vitamix at "high" speed, which is higher than the "variable at 10" speed. The box around the motor seems to dampen the high pitches, so while they're comparable in DBs, it sounds quieter.

So to give the Ninja a fair shake, I also ran the Vitamix for only 55 seconds, starting at variable 1, ramping it up to 10, and then turning it on high. I did not need to pulse at all.

This is the Ninja result. You can easily see flecks of kale still in the mix, and if you move your finger through it, you can feel the grittiness.

The Vitamix result is lighter and smoother. I felt no grittiness when moving my finger through it.

The final test was a side by side blind drink test. The results will surprise you! All jokes aside, here's the rub. I couldn't tell the difference. I tried so hard, drinking one right after the other, and I couldn't tell until Patrick asked me to chew. When I chewed on the Ninja smoothie, I could catch the grit in my teeth, while the Vitamix had none.

So here's my final verdict on the Ninja Smoothie maker. It does a pretty darn good job all things considered. And Ninja has a lot of options in regards to buying their products. If you don't need a blender or a food processor, you can get the Ninja Twisti, which just has smoothie cups, for about $120 on Amazon. But if you also need a blender, I don't think I could recommend the Ninja; I've had mine for several years and although it's a cool product, its blending ability with those triple blades just don't cut it (haha). If you can find a really good deal on a used Vitamix, I'd go for it, especially with the versatility it brings you if you're interested in making nut butter, hummus, sauces, and yes, even hot soup.

Bioluminescence Kayak Tour

You guys, I am still in awe over here. Patrick and I just had the most amazing experience and I wanted to share it. I decided a couple months ago to buy tickets for a bioluminescence kayak tour up at Port Gamble. 

[A brief description of bioluminescence: In the most basic sense, bioluminescence is the light emitted by a living organism through a chemical reaction happening in their bodies. Bioluminescence often happens in the ocean and in the water as this is where the most bioluminescent organisms are found. This is a great article that also has some really cool pictures of bioluminescence].

Something to note here: Patrick and I have never kayaked before. And our first experience was going to be at night - and a very dark night - because a new moon is the best time to see Bio, and Port Gamble was a place with very little light pollution. It was really good timing over all because we were just coming off of a pretty intense heat wave, which is great for bio tours in general, plus it was still going to be quite warm that night. We had no idea what to expect, and I was, as per usual, freaking out about it. I tend to do that when I'm walking into unknowns. Plus, I wanted to take my camera in hopes that I could capture some amazing photos [which, sad to say, I did not], and I was freaking out about capsizing and losing my camera. That was actually my biggest worry. The camera actually remained in the dry bag the entire time we were out on the water because steering and maintaining stability on the kayak was hard enough and the last thing I needed to do was fumble with an expensive piece of (not waterproof) equipment.

Instead, we just decided to enjoy the experience, which I really don't do enough of. For me, pictures are great reminders of past experience. I can look at a photo I took and remember all the circumstances surrounding it. I do go back and look at my photos and fondly remember things. Living in the moment for me can be kind of difficult when I'm busy trying to capture it for later.

So anyway, we had four guides, and their 30 second "this is how to paddle a kayak" info was really not enough to go off of. There were roughly 40 people on the tour, and probably only a handful of them have never been on a kayak before, so... yeah. Their kayaks were the double sit on top kind (yay? lol), and we were first in the water. Eep. 

We sat in the water as everyone got pushed out into the bay, where we were playing bumper boats like, the whole time while waiting. The boat kept swaying and I was not at all confident that we would stay upright, but it got better with time. We were going to kayak about a mile out, staying close to shore the whole time, and then head back.

To say we were slow was an understatement. Considering neither one of us knew how to paddle, and Patrick was a much stronger paddler, it took all of our concentration just to go straight. And we failed at that. A lot. But in the end it didn't matter because what we saw when we were out there was incredible. I'm going to borrow a picture from their website to show you roughly what we saw.

I can't even adequately describe to you how beautiful it was in person. The boat itself would disrupt the phytoplankton and caused glowing waves lapping against the kayak. In some spots, it was barely visible; just pretty sparkles in the dark water, while in other spots it was bright and intense. It would disappear just as quickly as it showed - you could slap the paddle and it was gone in an instant. But that is what is so unique about choosing a kayak to see bioluminescence. Your presence in the kayak itself is enough to make them emit the light. All you have to do is move through it and enjoy.

We were in bio pretty much the entire time we were out there. It was just so amazing. The stars were so bright, the night so dark, and the glow was mesmerizing.

As we made our way back, we began to get really tired. Paddling is hard work, and neither one of us have any stamina to speak of. Plus, our paddling technique (or lack thereof) was soaking our pants. But we had a great time. Even Patrick, who had started out not very excited about this endeavor, ended up enjoying it immensely. Would I do it again? You bet I would. 110 percent. And you should too. If someone with no experience in a kayak can do it, so can you! Worth every penny.

Shout out to Olympic Outdoor Center for doing these tours. It was fun!

Olympic Wilderness Basecamp

I like to watch Evening (Magazine) for cool ideas on places to eat or visit. One that popped up recently was Olympic Wilderness Basecamp, so I decided to make a reservation.

OWB is about 1-1/2 hours away from home, but off the beaten path pretty substantially. I chose the weekend of the new moon to take advantage of the clear night and potentially get some Milky Way photos in. It's only about 30 minutes away from Staircase at the Olympic National Park, and about 25 minutes away from Hoodsport and Hood Canal where I would have a clear view to the south.

We left at 1pm on Sunday and I had decided to take the slightly longer route through Kitsap County instead of diving I-5 the whole way there. Turns out that was a bad idea. Thank goodness for Google Maps, because they had closed parts of Hwy 3 due to a fire, and we were being rerouted on a long detour to get around it. We sat in line waiting to turn off of Hwy 3 and luckily Google knew what was up so it was trying to reconnect us back to Hwy 3. But once we got back to the stop sign that led us back to our road, another backup had formed and we quickly learned that it was still closed. A State Trooper told us to take a different route - luckily we could still reconnect with Hwy 3 later, and Google helped us majorly in getting back on track. All in all, it only lost us about 20 minutes, so not too bad.

Review of Olympic Wilderness Basecamp

I really liked this place. What is cool about it is that it bridges the gap between camping and a hotel. It's like glamping, but I don't think it's as fancy. There's no electricity (they do provide a Jackery battery) and no running water, but you do have your very own porta potty, and it was as clean as a whistle. I was actually quite impressed. 

There was a queen bed inside a geodesic dome, raised up on a wooden platform, with two comfy chairs and a clear plastic side with a view of the campsite and the wilderness beyond. It also comes with a wood stove for cold nights, a 2 burner propane stove for cooking, and a sparkless metal firepit. The bad news was that there was a severe burn ban in effect so we weren't allowed to use it. They had called us to let us know ahead of time (and provided free propane for the stove) which was super awesome of them. 

I just love that fact that most everything was provided. It gives us urbanites the ability to camp without having to find a place to store (and pack!) tents and sleeping bags etc. They sold propane and firewood on site so you didn't have to pack that either.

They have 7 geodesic domes at the campground, and some are spaced quite far apart in order to give you plenty of privacy. It's down a very well maintained NFD (national forest development) dirt road. The place itself was very well hidden though, and a small sign pointing to the driveway would have been quite helpful as it's basically a 180 degree turn to get onto the driveway, and nothing but a small gate; you would think it was somebody's property because there's no sign. 

The only other confusing thing is that there's nowhere to like, check in. I think it would be helpful if each of the domes had a sign with their names on them (We stayed in the Chinook dome) so we knew for sure we were in the right place, since there was no check in. We just kind of pulled up and started unpacking! But to their credit, they had the propane waiting for us (and then a new bottle was waiting when we got back from Staircase), so they were definitely around. Somewhere. lol

The geodesic dome itself had no insulation, so because it was 80 degrees outside, it was probably 90 inside the dome as it retained the heat like plastic windows tend to do. Luckily that also meant that as the temperature dropped outside, it quickly dropped inside. It was about 60 during the night so that was the perfect sleeping temperature for me. The bed was memory foam and actually quite comfortable. I was very impressed with the whole set up and want to go back for sure.

As soon as we got there, we set up to cook dinner, which was a tri-tip roast from Costco that was already pre-seasoned and sealed. Once we finished dinner, we headed out to Staircase to hike the 2 mile trail that followed the river. I wasn't sure if we were going to have to pay as I couldn't find any information; The hike was inside Olympic National Park but it didn't state if there was a fee because the only access to the Park was that hike and the campground itself. It was a 30 minute drive and yes, we had to pay. I didn't want to waste an hour driving back and forth again because it was already 6pm and I didn't want to lose anymore daylight. Patrick spoke to the ranger and got his permission to come back after the hike to drop off the payment info (thank goodness! The ranger was very nice).

I got some really good pics along the hike. 

We took the hour to drive back and forth again to drop off payment and once we were done with that it was time for quick s'mores (on the propane stove, lolz) so that we could take a nap before heading out for milky way photos. 

We found 2 spots along Hwy 101 for photos and I think they turned out pretty well - it was a lot brighter than I was thinking it was going to be, as the Milky Way was positioned right above a city glow.

We got back around 230 and went straight to sleep. We made a quick breakfast the next morning and headed back home around 10. We stopped at what used to be my favorite winery - Hoodsport Winery. Unfortunately, they closed production and now just sell other people's wines. They still had a lot of fruit wines though so I'm pretty excited to try the 3 that I bought. Once we were done we went straight home. It was a good trip and I'm excited to share the photos.

Married 6.9 ... Nice

Patrick likes Numerology. I like boomerang jokes. When we were discussing what day we wanted to get married (I wanted it to be in summer [for reasons] so cool dates like 2/23/23 or 2/3/23 were out) the first date that popped into my head was 6/9.

It's a childish joke, but because it's been a boomerang joke on LTT for years (definition: a joke that comes back again and again), and it's reminiscent of the number 47 (when Star Trek writers decided to try and hide the #47 anywhere in the episodes that they could), I figured, why not?

Neither one of us were keen on doing a "real" wedding (we were 1 and done with that), so getting married at the courthouse was the plan. 6/9 fell on a Friday so that was perfect. We planned on doing a small reception (aka "party") on 6/10 for a few close friends at the clubhouse of the apartment complex.

I didn't care to go through the whole wedding dress process. Not only did I want to keep the budget down but I wanted things simple since hardly anyone would see it anyway. I figured I could order something that I could wear more than once. I decided to order a dress online at an e-tailor called eshakti. What's cool about them is that you can take your measurements and they can tailor the dress to you before it's shipped. You can also change some features on them like the sleeve length or dress length. It was coming from India though so the whole thing took almost two months. But, it only cost me $90 and it fit great, so win-win.

My colors were teal, silver, and white, so once the dress arrived, we matched Patrick with a light gray/silverly suit and a teal tie. I made my own bouquet using white carnations, hydrangea, and mums, along with a matching boutonniere for Patrick. I let the flowers soak in teal water in order to pick up some of that color.

I ended up ordering the tie and my shoes on amazon because we shopped literally everywhere and could not find a matching tie color or white heels. Yet the first teal tie I ordered off amazon matched perfectly. Go figure. Grabbing some costume diamond jewelry to complete my look, we were set.

I was only nervous because I had never been to a courthouse wedding so I wasn't sure what to expect. I always like to over-prepare for stuff. I invited my parents as witnesses, along with my best friend Mary and her husband and child. Dad decided to get his camera out of storage and took some pictures for the first time since his heart attack. I was really happy that my mother (and father, tbh) were able to be at my wedding after the big health scares they had.

We set the time for 4:30 on 6/9, got our marriage license, and was told to arrive at the courthouse early because they close at 4:30. Even though I arrived in a teal and white dress, all the guards and stuff congratulated us on getting married. Oi. My parents were already waiting in the lobby, and Mary joined us outside the courtroom. It was a really simple process. The judge just asked us questions about where we wanted to stand and if we had our own vows and stuff (we did),
and got the ball rolling. I had Mary take pictures with my cellphone. It went off without a hitch and turned out great. We were out of there by 5pm.

I wanted the reception the next day to be slightly fancy so I had ordered a small wedding cake custom made with my colors (only invited about 13 people which is basically the limit for the clubhouse anyway), and a large charcuterie platter from one of my favorite restaurants called Stink. (I just heard that the owner sold it and I'm so sad!!). Got all of my wine from my favorite winemaker Wynoochee Winery, and a helium tank with some white, teal, and silver balloons. 

I was going to play bride and groom games, but unfortunately none of Patrick's friends could make it. Apparently everything in the world was happening on 6/10, including the World Poker Tournament in Las Vegas so Aaron couldn't come. His other friend had just had back surgery so he couldn't make it either. (Also, Brenda's daughter was doing Prom that night so she couldn't stay long, and Kim had finals for her RN classes.) Games such as "who said this, bride or groom?" wouldn't work since only my friends could come. I did set up a "Pin the Bowtie on the Patrick" game, and gave everyone a scratch-off ticket and Brenda won the $10 Target gift card.

Oh, I forgot to mention that while I was setting up, I tried to lift a case of water and threw my back out. I survived the party on oxycodone and well wishes. I couldn't wear my heels at the party or drink as much wine as I wanted to, but it still turned out well. Unfortunately that also meant that I was laid out on Sunday and Monday also so we couldn't go out to eat in Seattle like we had planned.

Overall though, it all turned out very well with no catastrophes, so I consider that a win!